What I intended to eat

What is currently a very prominent social phenomenon but has had its verbal value degraded into a cliché is now being comically refused by my system and ideals.

Unless I want to live on canned goods, instant noodles and instant whatever-powder, I will have to stop putting things off. I'm getting off this lazy life. I resolve to get a job. I need something to cook every time i opt to stay at the apartment.

Cuire ce que vous avez l'intention d'en manger.


Laurent

Lyrical assult

Hi ami. It's 7:56 PM and I'm cooking my my dinner at the apartment. A while ago, I wrote a song for someone who's my inspiration. A girl that used to lurk through my mind, thoughts and dreams. My dream girl.


I'll be posting the lyrics whenever I feel like doing so.


I already introduced you to her and she found out that some contents here about her are flattering.

You're my dream girl. You're my inspiration.

Laurent

New addiction

A pleasant evening, ami. It's been a day since I've wrote something here and I guess you missed me. Well, I missed you too ami. (since there's no one to talk to during wee hours back there at the apartment)


Oh, I'll be telling you about my new addictions. First, I got addicted to Ska music together with Reggae music. I don't know why. It's like I listened to it one time and poof, I got it playing through my head every time. I like how reggae and ska make their own beats and it makes me want to dance. (yeah, you can laugh,ami)


Second, my newly-learned Photoshop tutorial. The Charcoal Painting photo effect. (well, it's not the preset filter that comes with the PS installer) I'll be posting my recent Charcoal Painting photo effect at the end of this journal entry.


And lastly, I'm addicted to you. (yeah, you!) Don't ask who 'coz I won't tell.


Here goes the photo, ami.

How's this, ami?

Best

I wish I could stop time, just to give credits for the people who have touched my life so well enough to thank.

Distortion

I really missed you ami that's why I wrote a lot. This will be the last for tonight, don't worry.

The band jam a while ago at school was nice. Everything's fine except the broken bass drum pedal. It's nice and fine for our first time playing with each other. I'd like to have a second one as soon as possible.

It was also nice to see our professors watching us perform during the assembly. I feel like our band's the bomb that very moment. After a couple of songs, the ten minutes of fame has expired and it's time to leave the stage. T'was funny though that "some" people clapped their hands 'coz of our performance. It was really flattering.

Thanks to the supporters, sponsors and the "SG guy" that helped us all through out. And to my band mates, This will be the start! 

Chronospherized

It's already 2:08 am and It's my first time to try "weeds."


I feel like floating in the air with love and I found myself staring blankly in the thin air, with reddish eyes. Everything turned out to be funny. Promise!


Just tried it out of curiosity and promise never to try it again. Swear!


come and feel the vibe.


noted: 07/06/11

Away from home

Day 1:


Hi there ami. I have no choice to write this 'coz there's no internet connection here, so you need to wait a couple of days more. First day of being away was sad. I keep on missing everyone back in my place especially my little sister and her Oreo cookies. T'was kinda sad here sleeping alone but I guess I'll be used to it eventually. I'm a bit drunk, thanks to Ivan and the gang for celebrating his birthday. So, I guess day 1's got to end here. Bye for now!


P.S. Me and Charmaine isn't that compatible. I Strongly believe. Sigh.




Day 2:


Good morning ami. Just woke up after a session of mayhem. I'll be up for breakfast in a while. Be back after the jump!


Melvin's so problematic and shared almost everything with me. I did everything to comfort my friend and it turned out well I guess. I'm drunk again and I barely know what's happening now 'til I found out I'm on my bed, helpless. I need to sleep now. Goodnight ami.


Oh, by the way, it's quite nice to talk with people 'bout random thoughts. Thanks Drew, Warren, Riz and Riel. And also, little sister messaged me something that made me miss them back there at our place so freaking bad.


P.S. Jill texted me and I'm quite happy about it. <3




Day 3:


Good morning ami. I slept well last night after a long chat with friends. We went somewhere for breakfast and t'was fine. After getting home, there's no water supply. Crap. How would I take a bath for school? To cut it short, t'was funny and nice to take a bath at other's bathroom.


I'm already at school now and I'm about to attend my class. Bye!




Day 4:


I just woke up ami and I still feel the "vibe" from the last night's session. I'm about to prepare to meet my band mates for our last rehearsal for today. I hope everything's gonna be fine. Wish us luck, ami.


I'll be having coffee after this. It's more likely to be my last coffee here for the week 'coz I'll be home by night and I'm getting excited.


P.S. I dreamed of "you" last night and I wonder why you keep on bugging my thoughts. If that was just a dream, then let it be just a dream.

Je suis relevant de morceaux

Drifting through my own lullaby kept me awake at the last moment of my class this morning. I have not been bothered and relaxed at the same time in my life like this—the pressure of wanting to write something, probably a song and the soft beats carried me to a paradise of mine.

I twirled a Faber-Castell pencil from a canister between my slender fingers, while I listened to the alluringly soft voice of Maddi Jane singing Breakeven, but I can't think of anything to write — instead, this proprietor began typing and ended up with this entry. It's like I've molested your pages with such random doodles again, ami.


Laurent

Stop procrastinating

Instead of doing our thesis paper, studying for Differential Equation and researching PIC-related things, I watched a lot of Starcraft 2 and DotA streams today.

Like a slinky cat, I let my back slide down from my seat’s backrest and fumbled the chair’s wooden parts: it’s been a tiring day. I then remembered that it’s been a couple of days since I have started procrastinating again.

Seriously, I have to grow this attitude out, if that is even possible without my consent.


Aside from these attitude thingy, I'm pretty happy that my friend, Charmaine isn't mad at me anymore yet we haven't talked well since it's sunday and she's busy for tomorrow's school. I'm looking forward to have peace offering for her this week.


P.S. While having lunch at a random chinese cuisine this afternoon, I saw this old lady, probably in her mid 50's eating just across our table. Seeing her Dora the Explorer watch made me smile and made me wonder if her husband has his own Ben 10 watch too.


Laurent

Step back

I am here to take the chance of being able to look back without effort.

Just like the post  On ambitions , my thoughts took me back to a million or so instances of myself, wherein I was not aware of anything but the present agendas. It is so interesting to think that people change but still remain as the same person. People's feelings waver from melancholy to contentment. The swings are very much like the weather that never seems to be predictable and can change at the last second you record information.

Maybe I would not find these thoughts interesting in the future, who knows—

Laurent

Postscript to my little friend

Hey, ami, I know you already found out where did I put you but I'd still like to say this  to you. Yeah, because I'm bored and nerfed out, that is. I'd like to introduce you to the Internet. It's this physically non-existent place in which people can become anyone they wish to be and do neat and crazy stuff. You know how bad my penmanship is better than I do.

Speaking of getting nerfed out, it was since last night when a friend of mine and I had some misunderstandings. She literally misunderstood what I've said and end up ignoring me 'til today. T'was really boring having nobody to talk to, except you, ami. (since you're an online journal) I was really looking forward of befriending and getting closer to her but it seems like it's not going to happen. Sigh.

P.S. I want to admit to myself that I've nothing to offer until I keep on doing more things and keep on committing mistakes. That's why I'll start right now.

“I’m a  writer, i can play music, i can take photographs, I don’t draw that good and I commit mistakes. But I wish I were one of those people with incredible, outstanding talent and personality.

I used to be one of those people and I took it for granted, and now I need to catch up to the person that I could be.”

Laurent